Tuesday, June 22, 2010

wanting to throw in the flag

I've been angry, depressed, exhausted, sad, hurt, tired, over worked and more lately. I've been doing nothing but arguing with my so called father and dealing with an out of control, attitude, druggie brother here at home. Will it ever end? I wish I could move out right this minute. I had to go buy a new door knob with a lock on it just to keep my 17 year old brother out of my room because he takes my shit. My father hasn't been much of a father and everything about him drives me crazy as if he is trying to make my life even worse. Now I don't want to sit here and write a sob story and feel all sorry for myself but jeez I'm sick of everything!

My pharmacy called this morning. They have been trying to work on getting me a refill authorization for my Enbrel from my DR offices but have been getting shuffled back and forth so I called my Primary DR and insisted the lady check my file because she was saying she had no paper about it. Well I hope she felt like an idiot because she did find it and because of her I may not get my medications on time now. Thank you, DR office lady for not knowing HOW TO DO YOUR DAMN JOB. I'm so sick and tired of this bullshit. & my "Father" decided to rub in my face about how I won't have insurance by Dec, Thank you for the reminder you ass hole.

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Folic acid

My white blood cell count has been low the past few months. So I figured this is why I got sick, (a sore throat/running nose etc) this past week. & before that was my ear infection. As I was googling I found that folic acid contributes to the production of white and red blood cells. & well I haven't been taking my folic acid. So I then realized I had caused this myself. This is what I THOUGHT! Buuuut a few days ago they said it was at a 3.5 and 3.8 is normal so it had went up on the last blood test. (The one i took before realizing i better start taking my folic acid again) So i'm not so sure anymore. Either way i'm back onto taking folic acid daily as well as a daily vitamin (the adult gummy ones! yum!) Other weird things that have been happening was that 2-3 weeks ago i started developing red marks of some sort on my hands, near the corner of my eyes and one on my chest. This was the main reason I was googling side effects of different things. I still don't know exactly what it is but it has been getting better since I started back on folic acid so I'll have to bring this up to my rheumy when I see him next month.

Other then that i'm still doing the syringes for my Enbrel and i'm still getting the site reactions :( red, puffy and itchy! *sigh* It's worth it right now though cause I have been feeling pain free lately.

On a brighter note I am going to disneyland & cali adventures with my boyfriend and my cousin and her man on the 21st. So we will get to see the new world of color! i'm so excited! :D