UGHHH

"I wish I could just wake up one day and not have this stupid disease!!!! I just want some relief... a break, i'm so tired of my RA and how negatively it's impacted my life. I'm tired of worrying about health care and worrying about how much money i'll get a month because it's so hard to work without hurting in some way! I have a rheumy apt nov 29. Last one before the insurance change.

well happy thanksgiving everyone..."

That was my first update on this post. I decided to edit a bit. So I have had a horrid day quiet honestly. I feel like it passed by so fast that the entire day was filled with .. hm, pain and stress and crying. Made tons of phone calls today, 2 pharmacies, 2 doctors, a few insurance companies, a couple lawyers, and ssi.

Mistake for today? yeah i think i'm more happier when i forgot about all this crap in my life and pretend it doesn't exists, oh except for the days that I shoot myself up, that reminds me of just how serious things are. Seriously way to much to handle at age 23.. oh yeah I turned 23 last week on Nov 18th. I've been officially diagnosed ( by my rheumy) with my RA for 1 year. So happy birthday RA and to me.

what's changed? or whats gotten worse? or better?

I can say that my pain has improved since being on biological medication.. but it's not to the point where I would like it to be. I am still in pain .. a LOT. & the winter weather doesn't make it easier either! I've dealt with a lot this past year. & I still feel like i'm grieving! I can't get over the "why me" phase. Not only am I struggling with RA but also the financial hardships it's caused.

how do you all do it? I always used to be so optimistic, but ever since RA all i am is pessimistic!

Instant Chat

Hey guys I came across a really neat app i wanna share with you all because it'd be neat for us to chit chat via it if we ever need each others support and it's safer then giving out your phone number =P It's a texting app called "Kik" and it's real-time, meaning it works just like blackberry messenger! sweet! i've been waiting for something like this ever since switching to an android from my blackberry. Anyways this works with iPhones, Blackberry and Androids!! and it's FREE! You can download it from the App Store, or Market etc. Here is the website: http://www.kik.com/download.php You just create a username :)

Add me and send me a messenge letting me know who you are :D my username is: enchantedxkiss

RA & Work

Dear RA,

I hate hate hate you RA for making me unable to work 40 hours a week like normal people and earn more money to pay off stupid bills that I owe. & as I type this my wrists hurt too, thanks a lot for trying to ruin my life.

Love,

Me