"I wish I could just wake up one day and not have this stupid disease!!!! I just want some relief... a break, i'm so tired of my RA and how negatively it's impacted my life. I'm tired of worrying about health care and worrying about how much money i'll get a month because it's so hard to work without hurting in some way! I have a rheumy apt nov 29. Last one before the insurance change.
well happy thanksgiving everyone..."
That was my first update on this post. I decided to edit a bit. So I have had a horrid day quiet honestly. I feel like it passed by so fast that the entire day was filled with .. hm, pain and stress and crying. Made tons of phone calls today, 2 pharmacies, 2 doctors, a few insurance companies, a couple lawyers, and ssi.
Mistake for today? yeah i think i'm more happier when i forgot about all this crap in my life and pretend it doesn't exists, oh except for the days that I shoot myself up, that reminds me of just how serious things are. Seriously way to much to handle at age 23.. oh yeah I turned 23 last week on Nov 18th. I've been officially diagnosed ( by my rheumy) with my RA for 1 year. So happy birthday RA and to me.
what's changed? or whats gotten worse? or better?
I can say that my pain has improved since being on biological medication.. but it's not to the point where I would like it to be. I am still in pain .. a LOT. & the winter weather doesn't make it easier either! I've dealt with a lot this past year. & I still feel like i'm grieving! I can't get over the "why me" phase. Not only am I struggling with RA but also the financial hardships it's caused.
how do you all do it? I always used to be so optimistic, but ever since RA all i am is pessimistic!